I have been surrounded by magic my entire life. I have even been fortunate enough to live in my magic during certain phases of my life. For instance, when I was going to school for my post grad work and teaching in the New York City Public Schools I was thriving in my magic. I was honored to be an educator and administrator from 1998 through 2010. Then the magic was lost for quite some time but I never stopped fighting for it.
I’m getting closer to it now, I can tell. For six years when I was asked what I do now (you know on top of raising my two boys) I have also stated the truth, I tutor. If there is a student in need of guidance, I’m your girl. I love this connection to education without the rigid expectations of running a classroom or school. I have also given one version or another of this response…
I want to write a children’s book where the main characters have albinism and other special needs. I’m going to enroll in a Parent Advocacy class with The Federation of Children with Special Needs. I will become a certified Parent Advocate. I am going to start a non-profit organization, “Find Your Magic” that focuses on navigating the insurance, educational, and medical fields for families of children with special needs. It will also provide early childhood classes (music, playtime, movement etc.) for children that include the therapies provided in early intervention. While the children are in classes, there will also be FREE classes/workshops for their caregivers to learn about all things special education and how to maximize the services they acquire for their child/children. And of course, I will continue to find the best and most effective treatments and interventions for people with albinism while making sure my two sons have access to everything they deserve and receive top notch education from educators who take the time to understand their unique needs.
For six years I have researched. I have called. I have made friends and contacts. I have gone to meetings. All in spurts, when I could. In-between the chaos and losses and the self doubt, I have done my best. I have consistently worked through a lot of “stuff” to be mentally and spiritually able to say I am no longer in the hunting and gathering phase.
Thanks to my relentless spirit and the unconditional love and support of my tribe, I am doing it! I enrolled in a parent advocacy class that begins in October…I will be certified in January. I have conquered all fears of how I am viewed by the educators of my children and I am in the throws of fighting for what I believe is best for them. I have mapped out the plot and character arcs for my children’s books, somehow over time my vision changed one book to a series of books. I have even started to look into the next stage for this project! eek!
As for the non-profit, that one is still on the burner as I have attempted it twice and now realize it involves so many moving pieces that I need to assemble a team to be there with me. I already know who you are so get ready!!
Soooooo……my dishes are in the sink, my laundry is all over the house in piles, my pantry is missing key ingredients, and I have socks in my nightstand with my books and journals. In short, I am a terrible stay at home partner.
Through it all the depression, anxiety, mood swings, and attention issues, I have been blessed with a husband who stands by me. Through the grace of God he gets me. He gets me and all of my mess and stress, and he still loves me! On top of that he HELPS me, he shops and cooks and does laundry sometimes. Nothing that I accomplish right now could be possible without him and my out of this world mom. She cleans, she cooks, she organizes, she watches the boys whenever I need her to. Bottom line, she cares.
NO MATTER WHAT.
Oh yeah, and I want to reinstate the Sunday dinner. My husband and I have the most remarkable extended families. When we speak about what fuels us, we always end us at the dining room table surrounded by our families eating pasta and meatballs, watching football and laughing.
sigh a girl can dream!!!